EXISTENCE , III : HOPE

December 3, 2017. “You’re an interesting species. An interesting mix. You’re capable of such beautiful dreams and such horrible nightmares. You feel so lost, so cut off, so alone. In all our searching, the only thing we’ve found that makes the emptiness bearable, is each other.” -Carl Sagan, Contact Who are you? What are you […]

EXISTENCE, II : MILLENNIALS

November 5, 2017. “‘In the new century, everyone will be insane.’” It’s a line spoken in an early 90s play written by Tony Kushner called “Angels in America”. It’s the story of a group of gay young people coping with the AIDS crisis in 1985 New York City. The line is spoken by a homeless […]

Δ R K

October 29, 2017. “For a brief moment, I felt connected to the world in a way I never had before. It was the most profound feeling of comfort and sense of belonging that I could ever hope for.” This line brings me to the verge of tears every time I get to this moment of […]

U P C O M I N G , 10.24.2017//

October 24, 2017. This is going to be a “coming soon to theaters near you” kind of post… This blog is only a few days old as of the date of this post, and it’s been a godsend for me. These days are difficult. Writing helps, ALOT. This blog is primarily a diary of sorts. […]

EXISTENCE, I : THE WOLVES

October 22, 2017. So, you’re having an existential crisis. You’re not alone; I’m in that boat too. What even is an existential crisis? Is there a way to overcome it? According to Wikipedia, grand modern distributor of knowledge of our times, an existential crisis is “a moment at which an individual questions the very foundations […]

Δ CLOSED WORLD

October 22, 2017. “In my skin I feel like I can’t be myself. Would you like me more if I was someone else? Through the glass I see someone that looks like me. Mirrors always show what you don’t want to see. Can you fix me now? I don’t know how. Can you fix me […]

I D E N T I T Y

October 22, 2017. Who are you? Who am I? I am Javi. I am 25 years old, not tall, not short, struggle to grow a beard even tho my younger brother, two years younger, grows one with ease. I am queer, I am cisgender. I am deeply, suicidally depressed. Anxiety goes hand in hand with […]

N e X T

10.22.2017// Weird way to write a date huh. This is the beginning. I’ll introduce myself : hey. My name is Javi, short for Javier. I’m 25 years old, I’m brown, I’m skinny, I’m lost. I hope we can get to know each other better soon. The site says to describe why I’ve chosen to start […]